It definitely hit me this past Monday – Nate and I are getting married next week. WOW! After 8 months of being engaged and many more months of anticipating engagement and dreaming about our future together, we are just days away from beginning our lives as husband and wife. If you were to ask me how I’m feeling right now, I would probably list emotions such as excited, nervous, overjoyed, eager, mildly anxious, and impatient. We are so ready to be there and at this point, it just feels like the days are dragging by! And then, when we each walk out of work next Tuesday and enjoy the rest of the week with family and friends, I’m sure it will fly by so quickly we can hardly keep up with it all.
It’s interesting, as our engagement is coming to a close, to reflect back on this time we’ve had to prepare. I cannot tell you how many times people said to me, “Enjoy this special time of preparation! Don’t get too stressed! This is such a fun time for you both!” Overall, these are good words of wisdom because it is a special time – to begin making plans together and to create a day to celebrate your marriage. But…I have to admit that engagement definitely wore on us after awhile and it was harder than I expected it to be. We’re both tired of being in limbo and waiting for our lives to start. We feel like everything is kind of put on hold until the wedding and then we can move on and face the joys and challenges of marriage. So, for all of you engaged couples out there, I have one thing to say: It’s ok if you don’t like being engaged after awhile. Don’t feel bad for admitting it, just because everyone tells you’re supposed to enjoy it. It’s hard to wait, but it will get better!
One thing that I am currently very thankful for: I am not stressed or overwhelmed. I worked hard so that these last few weeks, I wouldn’t be very busy and, in fact, I’ve run out of things to do. My tasks for this weekend are limited to cleaning my house and car before guests arrive late next week. Yay for planning ahead!